In love for the first time

After 23 years of being in a relationship, I fell in love for the first time. He wooed me tirelessly but I never paid any attention or knew how deep and patient this love is. I always thought I'm not worthy of a love like this. But this is what He told me: I love you with an everlasting love. (Jer 31:3) You do not need to do anything to win my love for you because I already love you. I am not a liar. (Num 23:19) I love you and that is the truth. The truth will set you free. (John 8:32)

I was deeply touched by the promise and declaration of such love. Although I've been a Christian for more than 2 decades, I never understood what it really means to be a child of God. Nor have I experienced His love for me. Last Christmas, I cried out to Him to show Himself to me, to proof to me that He exists, that He cares for me. Since then, He has not stopped wooing me. He has been relentless in His efforts to proof His love to me. He is the almighty God who creates heaven and earth and sent His son, Jesus, to die for me. He has done it all. He has proven His love for me thousands of years ago. I am but a speck of dust. Yet, He goes all out to pursue my love, to soften my cynical heart. In Him, I know I need not strive. In the midst of storms and chaos, I can hide under His wings. He says, 'Be still and know that I am God. (Psalm 46:10). My grace is sufficient for you. (2 Cor 12:9)'